For some reason I have put off writing blog posts because I wanted this to be the first one. To talk about creating space online. How we must take up space even in places that we don’t quite understand like the internet.
I built a website using Tripod when I was 16ish. It had a black background and lots of * * * in patterns along the sides in pink and purple or aqua depending on the page. There was an about me page and I have no idea what I said, a page of my poetry, and a blog that eventually linked straight to my livejournal*. I talked to my friends and strangers who found my website or whose website I somehow found. I don’t know how this happened, how we found each other, because this was before Google but we figured it out.
I just did it then to do it. It made no sense, there weren’t famous bloggers or influencers or affiliate links. How cool is it that folks do make their living blogging on the internet? Some people do it so well, create positive change, make the world a better place by sharing stories and recipes and way more. This may seem like an elementary way of tracking the progress of the internet. I’ve done that on purpose.
I am fascinated by slow things. Did you know there is a whole slow movement? Slow living, cooking, gardening, etc. Their entryways are exceptionally tidy and may have a handmade broom, their heirloom vegetables grown from seed exchanges at the library. They bake their own bread (as my husband is doing right now) and sit by the fire (as I am doing right now).
What does slow internetting mean? Is that a term that has been discovered? I will google that after I finish writing this. Everything has been discovered already, and that is okay, the discovery of this idea in my mind is still important. Still my own truth. (Update: apparently a slow internet is a bad thing and googling it provides many options on how to fix your slow internet connection.)
As my relationship with the internet evolves. With my phone, with my apps, with social media and the whole lot. I want a space to create on my own and I want to see where it takes me. I want to look at the internet with wonder of what we can find and call in. I want to remember that movements happen and people grow and soften. I want it to be slow because I long to be slow. I long to calm the nerves in my body, to trust the process, to move forward but savor all of it.
My husband sent an article to my Pocket** sometime over the Summer. I let it sit in my Pocket for weeks unread. I am not an impulsive reader. I am someone who sets things aside and am convinced they come back to me at the exact right moment. This is optimistic procrastination with a touch of magic and that works for me.
This is the piece that inspired me make myself a place on the world wide web:
Maybe it will do the same for you but also maybe not. It is a good read either way and definitely click through to the website full of sparrows quoting folks about the future of the internet.
*Livejournal is a journal/blog platform created in 1999 and was very popular in the early 2000’s.
**Pocket is an APP that works as a reading list. You can see an article, put it in your pocket, and read it later. This is brilliant and also good for plane rides and other places that you don’t have access to the internets.